Courtney was born and raised in suburban St. Paul, Minnesota, but always wanted to move to sunny L.A. She turned that dream into a reality when she was accepted to UCLA, where she obtained an undergraduate degree in economics. Courtney’s passion for fashion and modeling started very early on. After various shopping sprees with her mom, they would outfit her new clothes and partake in an impromptu photoshoot in their backyard. Courtney’s other interests include volleyball (which she competed in for seven years), yoga, karaoke, tennis, trying new foods and going to concerts.
Armon Hayes is an editor for 360 Magazine and the creative director for Ace of Haze Style of Ace (AOHSOA). 360 Magazine and Armon are reaching out to brands regarding sponsorship opportunities with their companies. On Saturday, June 12th btw 4PM-8PM, his intimate immersive pop-up shop will be reminiscent of a traditional Bronx Bodega, and is a collaborative effort to elevate both brand’s priorities in popular culture and design (PC+D). This creative intersection is the environment in which his team, partners, friends reside and thrive.
This boutique and private shopping experience will be held at the #360TRAP Bronx workspace, with Armon and friends. Space is compatible with all ideas from the imagination. The event will feature #AOHSOA Trunk Pieces and lifestyle choices, specifically designed for consumers to live their best PC+D lifestyle.
Target: 25 appointments, including live/digital/customized orders.
The pop-up will possess a carnival theme and will feature creative activities and decors compatible with this fun concept. The event’s open bar will run for four hours and feature signature spirits of mixologists, as well as festive tapas. This event will be a privileged opportunity to reinforce brand awareness and network among target audiences and sponsors.
Our signature drink for the night will be the The Remix by INDOGGO® Gin:
Muddle strawberries in a cocktail shaker, add INDOGGO®, lemon juice, simple syrup, and ice cubes. Shake, then strain into a rocks glass, serve with crushed ice.
Participation in the event will take place by invitation only. The guest list was developed using email databases and social tools, and includes relatives, friends and influencers. Visiting appointments will be staggered in increments of 45 minutes each, as the event will follow all COVID-19 precautions as recommended by CDC guidelines. For more information on the event’s scope, please see the Media Kit.
For sponsors, their brand logo will be featured at the event through marketing tools used for social engagement. Swag bags available with purchase. An exclusive selection of my lifestyle choices will be organized and presented to festivalgoers. Sponsors can take part in these levels of participation:
Bronze: Brand can choose to be part of the “Swag with Goods” lifestyle, a must-have gift bag. $249
Gold: Sponsors will have a page built on 360 Magazine’s website and their brand displayed during the event. $475
Platinum: Sponsors will receive a full-page in a forthcoming edition of 360 Magazine. Their brand will be posted to the event, and samples of their product or branded gift cards will be included in the VIP Swags. $789
This summer event will also be the precursor for World Blood Donor Day (6/14) and Armon Hayes’ birthday (6/16). You may RSVP HERE.
Armon looks forward to working with Bodega sponsors as he moves forward.
Isabelle Grace Jewelry creates stunning, timeless pieces of jewelry. These beautiful baubles have been spotted on celebs such as Katherine Heigl, Christina Milian, Danica McKeller and more. Customers can create their one-of-a-kind jewelry by selecting personalized charms, initials, and semi-precious stones. With a wide variety of hair accessories, bracelets, necklaces, rings, and anklets, customers are sure to find their next favorite statement piece.
Zavor Cookwear offers practical kitchenware that has been recommended by “America’s Test Kitchen,” Good Housekeeping, and more! Zavor’s Noir Cookware Collection is durable and retains heat, which allows for even cooking throughout dishes. With quality cookware like the LUX LCD Black multicooker, DUO Pressure cooker, Induction PRO cooktop, and the Crunch Air Fryer Oven, making dinner is easier than ever. At the Bodega, all of the aforementioned products will be auctioned off to guests in a raffle.
All of these cookware pieces are designed to go from the stovetop or oven to an elegant table presentation, without mess or worry. The simple yet modern design offers absolute cook-and-serve convenience. For more information, you can visit Zavors’ website.
360 Magazine sat down with up and coming model Acobie Inniss, to find out how he got started with modeling and where he plans to go next. The young, Barbadian model has a unique look that is sure to gain attention as his modeling career takes off.
Included below is also information about Rhaj Paul a designer that works with Acobie and Graham Edwards, Acobie’s agent. Working together, the team has created an amazing shoot featuring Acobie as the star.
When did you decide to begin modeling and how did you get started?
I was approached by Graham from GADAL Model Management at the end of 2018 and I didn’t take it too seriously at the time. A year later we had another chance encounter meeting and this time I decided it couldn’t hurt to give it a try; so I officially started at the end of 2019.
What was it like growing up in Barbados?
Growing up in Barbados is great! I loved that a nice beach would always be right around the corner; I was definitely a beach person, like in the summer I would be at the beach every day. I loved riding around on my bike and playing football and many other sports with my friends.
Do you think you will eventually become a full-time model? Why or why not?
Yes! I’m hoping to become a full-time model; but I know life can have twists and turns so I remain open to it happening or not happening, where ever life takes me I guess.
Where do you aspire to be five years from now and do you have plans to get there?
Five years from now I’d like to have my own home and to be traveling the world with my girlfriend- who I hope will be my wife at that time. I also want to be in a financial position to invest in Real Estate and be able to help the needy. Things don’t always go according to plan, but it’s still good to have one in place. I plan to keep an open mind and open heart to whatever opportunities come my way.
Are your family and friends supportive of your modeling career?
My mother and my close friends are supportive.
What has been your favorite part of modeling so far?
So far, my favorite part is meeting new people; trying new experiences and exercising my confidence and communication skills.
Some of your hobbies include stunt-riding and photography, do you hope to progress these talents further in the future?
Yes, I hope to progress further in these hobbies. For example the stunt riding; I’d love to build a community (of riders) where we ride for a cause…hopefully raise some funds as well and donate to different charities while having fun riding (smile).
What makes you unique from other up and coming models?
Well, I think everyone is unique in their own way; for me, I’m not sure, some people say it’s my hair or maybe my eyes. Lol.
Do you have any collaborations coming up that you’re excited about?
I’m definitely hoping to have some collaborations! I know my agency is working on stuff…don’t want to let the cat out of the bag. I like to only speak about things after they are done.
Are there any other models you would like to work with in the future?
I’d like to work with everyone! I’m new to this industry so I want to learn as much as I can from everyone.
About Acobie Inniss
Acobie is a newly discovered Barbadian model who describes himself as a “regular guy” who loves stunt riding and going for long rides on his Haro mountain bike. He says, he also likes researching things on the internet and learning new things.
One look at Acobie however, and you’ll see he’s anything but “regular”; the 6’ 2”, 21-year-old is an eclectic ethnic blend of Black; White and Indian- with a negro structured face and nose; light skin; freckles; pink lips; hair that can change color ranging from dark brown to blonde; perfect jaw-lines and hazel eyes with an intense gaze, that causes you too, to also gaze intensely. Anything but “regular!”
Acobie is not just another pretty face though, he is also talented practically with his hands. He’s a certified electrician and PV (photovoltaic) installer and sees the latter as “the future” because it’s “environmentally sustainable; good for the planet and clean energy”.
He also has a passion for photography (which he’s teaching himself); because he likes how you can “capture a moment forever.” All the knowledge he has on various topics such as his stunt-riding and photography he eagerly shares on his YouTube channel another one of his hobbies.
He loves the artist Saint Jhn (who’s originally from Guyana) and appreciates his music; success and Caribbean roots. Acobie is also into Kendrick Lamar and Arianna Grande. His favorite fashion brands he’d love to work with are Polo Ralph Lauren; Gucci and Prada.
About Rhaj Paul
Rhaj Paul is a conscious artist, whose objective is to use the medium of fashion and design to grow positivity, creativity and connection, particularly in the Caribbean and the Caribbean diaspora.
From the emergence of his eponymous cut ‘n’ sewn menswear label – Rhaj Paul Montaazh (pron. ‘montage’) in 2000 to the trendsetting soft apparel Brand Evolve in 2010, and the first-ever Barbadian beard brand – The Beard Island Gang in 2014, the name Rhaj Paul has been synonymous with top-quality craftsmanship, unique style and innovative fashion marketing in Barbados.
His work encompasses bespoke tailoring and design, fashion styling, graphic design and motivational public speaking.
Rhaj has worked with various organizations, entertainers, artists, videographers and photographers and has also starred in several local movies
Passionate, inspired, skilled and committed to raising an attitude of excellence and a genuine love for authentic self-expression, Rhaj Paul represents the Ministry Of Style Creative Alliance in its mandate to grow creative entrepreneurship in the Caribbean region and beyond.
Welcome, Minister of Style Rhaj Paul Whitehead!
About Khali Goodman
Khalil Goodman is a photographer, digital strategist and writer. When he’s not art-directing or shooting a new set of images, Khalil spends too much time reading comic books and listening to all the wrong music at the right volume.
About Graham Edwards
Graham Edwards is a Model Agent and the founder and owner of GADAL Model Management Inc., a Barbadian based mother agency and model management company specializing in the scouting, training and placement of primarily black models internationally.
The name “GADAL” is a Hebrew verb for: “to grow; become great; become important; promote; make powerful; praise; magnify; do great things; to increase; to exceed; to excel; to promote; to become like a great tree or tower.”
It’s a personification of all that he wants to do for black models worldwide. He describes his job as, “doing my part to ensure a more level playing field in the fashion industry for models of color; long before Black Lives Matter appeared- I always knew black models mattered!”
Nothing makes him more satisfied than to see models of color succeed and to see them on the runways worldwide and in the pages of major international magazines.
Models scouted and placed internationally by GADAL Model Management Inc. through Graham, have appeared in Beyoncé’s music video: Get In Formation; Tinchy Stryder’s In My System; Avicii’s I Could Be The One; in shoots with Selita Banks; appeared in major fashion publications: L’Officiel Hommes; Men’s Health UK; Men’s Health Portugal; Cosmopolitan; Essence Magazine; Prestige Hong Kong; Cole Magazine; ESTE 2 and walked for international labels and designers: Givenchy; Calvin Klein; Moncler; Marcelo Burlon; Granted London; Sibling London; OTHER UK; Fausto Puglisi; Dockers and represented international brands such as: Nike; Coca Cola; Levi Jeans; Addidas; Asics and Equinox Gym.
The company has signed the models it represents into several international fashion markets and placed them with larger model agencies in: Germany; Italy; Mexico; South Africa; Spain, UK and the USA. Graham loves his job; still, actively scouts for models and is excited about every ‘new face’ he discovers and helping them achieve their fullest potential!
Fabian J. Amezquita, better know as Fabio Jay, was born in Peru in 1994. He came to the US at the age of 6 and is fluent in English, Spanish, and Portuguese. In 2015, Fabio’s life was changed forever when he was in a horrible car accident which left him clinically dead for three hours. Now, Fabio lives with a condition called degenerate disc disease and 6 herniated discs.
In addition to being a successful model, he’s a teacher and football coach. This past February Fabio was featured in two NYFW shows. In 2019, he was the cover model for the May issue of ThatSplashMag.
Fabio’s greatest strength is his ability to motivate people through his life journey. He constantly encourages people through his testimony and ability to never be held back by his injuries.
As of late, 360 MAGAZINE had an opportunity to glide through the five Burroughs of NYC in an all-terrain super-luxury SUV during the Holiday Season.
Unassuming and illustrious are the best words to describe the 2020 Rolls-Royce Cullinan SUV. Worth its weight in gold! Approximately priced around $394,275, it’s the most expensive off-roader in it’s class and by far the most luxurious in the world.
Handcrafted from the soil up, every nook and cranny has the Rolls-Royce stamp of approval. The overall shell of the vehicle is sleek and seamless. Every pillar and appointment makes perfect sense. Outside, the frontfasia is bodacious with integrated laser headlights and a pronounced grill. The Spirit of Ecstasy (SoE) sits on the hood and is retracts at a moment’s notice. 22″ inch part polished wheels and tires have a weighted emblem in the middle so as the car rolls (no wordplay intended) it stays center so there’s no mistaking who fabricated this monster. Swooping lines lead towards the back wisease. At first glance, it’s profile is somewhat reminiscent of an Range Rover Autobiography. On the sides, are LED parking lights. Boxy, beautiful yet masculine. At the rear, are gem-like light fixtures with turning signals. The boot has a clamshell tailgate which opens up and out with dual doors.
Push the button on the door knob to enter. Right before you enter the cabin, you are greeted by illunlminated ‘Cullinan’ treadplates alongside of lambswool floor mats. Even if the interior lights aren’t on, the Charles Blue interior leather seats are just as magnetic as Angelina Jolie’s electric eyes. One will feel like they’re swimming in Bali at Geger Beach wrapped by a navy blue beach towel in leather. Equally drowned by a sea of blue, the moonroof unveils the sky like a drophead, making the cabin feel more open and airy. Literally two to three people can promote their entire bodies out of the dual panel sunroof. It’s definitely one of the largest in its segment hands-down. Per usual, all of the appointments are wrapped in leather and stainless steel as easily as every headrest is embossed by SoE. Classic dials throughout and an analog clock sits on the dashboard with the same kind of realness as Big Ben in London.
Continue along to the back seats, the same luxurious integrity is apparent with large screens with trays which go flush. Instead of a back panel window in the trunk space, it’s laid right on side of back passengers. All of the rear windows possess dark tempered glass fit for the likes of the Queen herself, Beyoncé. As we dropped a passenger off at the Hard Rock Hotel in Time Square, tons of bystanders huddled around to take pictures.
Once again, the BMW’s iDrive system is dominant in the infotainment unit. The knob toggles through various screens, but this season they have a concierge which makes it a tad easier to locate and designate a destination – similar in type to Lexus Enform. Eight different settings for driver/passenger massages – excellent way for a driver to refresh during a long road trip.
During these colder months, the steering, arm rests and seats are heated. And, if you haven’t received a formal crash course on your Cullinan, you can refer to the animated digital owner’s manual which can easily search many of its amenities. The custom Rolls-Royce signature audio system has tweeters, floor subwoofers and enough watts to make you thump like you’re at a rock concert.
With more bells than whistles, you won’t leave a lane or come close to a dinging anything on this vehicle. The over the head 360 panoramic backup cam gives you a spaceage Jetson POV of what’s around the vehicle at all times. Night vision with heat detectors can help you navigate through woodsy areas without hitting a deer. In the urban center, we were alerted while behind a school bus – cameras came about when pedestrians accosted the vehicle’s walk around radius. Moreover, with a reinforced steel skeleton and airbags virtually for every piece of your body, you’re pretty safe in this vehicle.
Weighing in at around 5,863 lbs, this V12 turbo is more than powerful. With 570 HP and 627 pound-ft of torque, this SUV plows. Of course, the AWD allows you to claw corners and steering provides you with turning capabilities as if you’re in a sportscar. We pounded the asphalt and it felt like we could conquer 0-60 mph in less than 4.9 minutes while we entered the Garden State Parkway. There’s a reason why RR makes airplane engines because we felt like we were flying! Mentioning mpg makes no sense if you’re purchasing an automotive beast like this one – but here you go – 12 city / 20 highway.
If you’re in the market to floss and experience what many will never – this car should make it onto your bucket list. Out of all the Rolls-Royce tribe, this is the most practical as you can apply it for everyday use as well as a red carpet experience.
Yamen Sanders hails from Los Angeles and has lived in various stations in the world. At the early age of 7, he was fluent in Italian. During Yamen’s travels, he has engaged in many community service events and has performed community outreach in Africa. Growing up in an athletic family, Yamen has been in competitive sports his entire lifetime, thus leading to a collegiate and professional football career. After football, Yamen began modeling and has accumulated a great career in a short span. He has operated internationally with brands such as Apple, Gatorade, and Nike.
Most recently Yamen was on CBS’s reality TV show Love Islandin which he created a huge splash with his contagious personality and humor. True to his TV persona, Yamen prides himself on being relatable, inspirational and truthful to himself.
Ethan Solu, half Turkish and half American, was born on March 6, 2000. He was brought up and raised in Morro Bay, California on the Central Coast with three brothers. His friends refer to him as ‘E-Sol.’
As of late, Ethan has extensively traveled (to Turkey and many divisions of Europe).
Ethan spends most of the year attending a local junior college where he takes core curriculum classes.
In his spare time, he spends most of it outdoors or near the ocean. He enjoys surfing, kayaking, fishing and diving. He also enjoys exploring California and spends time searching for new surfing and camping spots which he has never experienced. One of his favorite places to explore is Big Sur. He reckons it his backyard due to its proximity to his hometown.
Besides surfing, Ethan likes playing team sports – water polo, volleyball and swimming. He and his brother spend a heap of time in the gym playing basketball and working out.
Today, Justin Roberts drops his new single and video entitled, Way Too Much. It features Justin alongside of influencer Jordyn Woods as well as model Sofia Jamora. In the video, the trio plays life-sized dolls being assembled and packaged in a toy factory.
Justin is managed by Post Malone’s manager, Austin Rosen.
TRAVEL JOURNALIST THOMAS WILMER INTERVIEWS 360 MAGAZINE PUBLISHER VAUGHN LOWERY
Small to medium sized business often fall short due to high turnover. Vaughn Lowery, Publisher of 360 Magazine, provides listeners with first-hand knowledge on the ever-shifting world of digital publishing and content creation through a youthful lens. Likewise with his innate ability to be accessible, he speaks to working in tandem with emerging generations and how their input could be detrimental to the survival of a brand.
An Additional Conversation with 360 Magazine’s Publisher Vaughn Lowery
If Vaughn Lowery was asked what his idea of success was 10 years ago, his answer would be very different from what it is today. He may have said that success means doing what he loves to do, being accomplished, or having a certain amount of material things.
“Success to me now is having a purpose in life and feeling passionate and fulfilled by it,” says Lowery.
Lowery got his first taste of the industry while interning for Vibe Magazine while on Summer vacation from Cornell University. His sister drove him into New York City every morning to drop him off and always advised him to be the first one at the office. One morning Lowery found himself alone with the publisher of the magazine at the time, Keith Clinkscales, which gave him the opportunity to speak with him one-on-one. It was due to his sister’s advice that he got the chance to do what no other intern would normally get to do.
After finishing up at Cornell in just three years, Lowery became an executive trainee with Saks Fifth Avenue. He was able to get along with everyone in the office and was doing great when he was called into his boss’s office one afternoon.
“She told me I was in the wrong business; that I was very charismatic and should try acting,” Lowery says, “but, I liked the path I was on at that time.”
It wasn’t until Lowery was asked by someone connected to the talent industry if he was a model that he truly considered breaking into the talent industry. Shortly after taking professional photos and getting them out to agencies, Lowery ended up with Ford Models. From there he did photoshoots, tv commercials, and ad campaigns, all while still working in outside sales at Aetna US Healthcare. Once he began modelling full time his face was in the pages of GQ, Harper’s Bazaar, Vogue, and Gap. By being around people of all different positions, primarily in the magazine publishing industry, Lowery came to understand how content was produced. It was right before the recession hit while he was living in LA that Lowery made the transition from modelling to the publishing industry.
It was his experience in modelling that inspired Lowery’s creation of the 360 Magazine. While working on any given shoot, Lowery was often one of just three or less black men. Often times he was the only black man on a set which drew his attention to the lack of representation in the media industry. Lowery’s goal for the 360 Magazine was that it would fill this niche and promote diversity across the publishing world, specifically the covers of its magazines.
For those wanting to work in the media industry, specifically in the publishing world, Lowery suggests starting from the ground up.
“Being self taught and learning as you go is something you need to be open to,” says Lowery, “Ask tons of questions, and learn everything you can from every position.”
Lowery warns that it’s important to be open and cordial to everyone, because you don’t know when your paths will cross again. Making connections and using them is how most people gain opportunities. He also adds that just by hanging out with people you’ll always learn something that you can apply to aspects of your work.
Things in the industry have been changing and becoming more digitally focused since the beginning of 360 Magazine’s launch. The magazine was started during a time of e-zines, so it’s not a surprise that the website came first. Lowery had experience with creating websites from a young age so the move from print to digital was natural for him. It was clear to him where the industry was going.
“Print was getting costly, bookstores were looking dilapidated and even Barnes and Noble was focusing on their version of the tablet, the Nook,” says Lowery, “All the magazines were looking alike anyway.”
Print was still important though. Besides the fact that advertising agencies want to see a physical copy of a magazine before working with them, print is taken more seriously due to its cost. Other companies will be aware that a certain magazine has the funds to support itself if they have a print copy to show for it.
360 Magazine printed their first issue in 2009, but it was costly. Lowery began thinking that there had to be some other way to work with print. It was then that he decided to do print on demand publications. 360 Magazine linked with Blurb, which allowed anyone to order a print copy of the magazine right from our website. They’ve been distributing to them for 9 years now.
The magazine’s estimated circulation, which is based on print, is 110,000 from print on demand. This number doesn’t tend to move much, but most people end up reading 360 Magazine’s online articles through WordPress.
When asked what makes a media contributor most marketable, Lowery says that in this industry you need a social following and the ability to network. Being accessible and having a portfolio of published work is a great place to start as well.
“Do it all,” Lowery says, “monetize, write, take photos, be on time, and take initiatives.”
The hardest thing about the industry in Lowery’s opinion is breaking into it and surviving on freelance jobs along the way. Writers should be prepared to sacrifice mentally, physically and financially. While working for a publication, Lowery says that writers need to do what they can to become a valuable asset to them. That way, a publication will be more likely to keep you on board and help you in the future.
As for internship positions at 360 Magazine, Lowery aims to teach interns everything that he didn’t learn. He’s assigns articles for interns to write, pushes them to network, has them do coverage and teaches them how to get published or to self-publish.
“We teach interns how to be resourceful and find themselves in the organization,” says Lowery.
When interns can bring business to the magazine, the magazine will bring business to them. Special assignment opportunities are available for interns who finish their program and are still looking to remain involved. Lowery says that while the magazine is specifically looking to groom editors, that if a publication wants to really pop, then they have to have a revolving door.
When asked what goals he has for the future of 360 Magazine, Lowery responded that he aims to keep it three dimensional with podcasts and web series.
“I want to be able to put the brand out to different countries and places in America,” says Lowery, Local presences would strengthen us.”
He also says that he’s interested in the possibility of a reality spin off or docu-series, as well as introducing more formal programs for educational purposes.
When did you realize that you wanted to be an artist/fashionista?
All my life I’ve had an attraction to doing things in a different way. I never wanted to look like someone else, never wanted to share my fashion secrets or my music because I had attached so much emotion in creating whatever piece it was or if were music it would never just be a song, for me. I was never like my friends and for a while that was a struggle for me internally. Sometimes I would even sacrifice my own desires to wear certain pieces in order to skip out on the ‘reading’ sessions. That still didn’t stop me from trying it sometimes though, I remember I would go to the nearest arts and crafts store which for me was ‘Michaels’ (laughs) and would go crazy getting little things to add to my clothes to make them different but then I would also go to Sam Ash, the Virgin Music Store, Guitar Center and I would feel like I was in heaven. No matter what, fashion and music have always been my life. Like I could sit in these stores for the rest of my life and be okay. That’s how much I loved creating and these stores gave me all the tools I needed.
I have always been a magnet to everything that dealt with the arts. But my biggest passion was singing and even though I’ve been singing since the age of 5, I didn’t know that I wanted to pursue being a singer until my 9th grade year in high school. This is why after graduating I ran straight to NYC all by lonesome (giggles) to pursue music. I was way to young to be running off to the Big Apple as a teen with a part time job at the GAP, making minimum wage. New York City was a monster and I’m not going to lie it almost ate me alive. But only after 6 months of being there, thankfully, so many doors opened for me and it was an amazing feeling to be carefree and pursue music with no walls or barriers. NYC was giving me all the life and opportunities needed in order to grind and continue to grind even when I had not a dollar to my name and had to sing on the train with my friends for food. That part never made me feel sad because I never knew how ‘low’ I was because I never had LOW thoughts, I knew that where I was, was temporary and only for the sole purpose of learning the lessons needed to be successful and to grow and to evolve. Crazy thing is I never felt bad for it, it felt so good to grind for my money while doing what I love. I looked at singing on the trains as my stage per say for that chapter in my life. Today, I have experienced so many different things which I won’t even dive into but it has given me a different appreciation for life.
As of late, I am in the studio recording my album and will be performing in Manhattan, Monday, February at 7PM
Rockwood Music Hall, Stage 1.
What inspired your new album?
I had a full album done and ready to go and visuals that my fiancé (Michael Mann) had helped me out with for my release but after the tragedy that happened I no longer connected to the old music. I have so much more to say and so much pinned up aggression that I knew my only healthy escape would be to express it on my debut album. Which will be entitled, Steven my birth name.
It symbolizes me going back to my roots to find myself again.
How’s life after losing a loved one?
Life after losing a loved one has been very up and down for me. As of recent, I’ve drowned myself in work because I know that is where I’m safest right now. When you know yourself and you want better you keep yourself away from danger. Right now dead time is danger for me so I’m always moving. My heart is in constant pain but I’m learning to live with it. It is a battle I have yet to conquer but I know with time I’ll be fine.